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Saturday, May 11, 2013

"Everyone needs to just calm down and drink some water."

With everything going on in our lives right now, that's my new mantra. It is borrowed from my favorite first grade client, who included this statement in her closing prayer after family home evening.

Makes me pumped for kids.

...whiiiiich is a great segue on the hapennings of the Scurr town-household. We are having a BABY BOY this FALL!! I don't think there are words to explain how thrilled we are!

I journal about my pregnancy, but I am regretting not sharing more if it with family (who I'm pretty confident  are the only ones reading this, which is perfect)! Since I know for a fact I will not be writing "THE LABOR STORY" in any detail, mostly because I'd rather not relive the medical aspects, I'll include other parts. Like the conception story.

Just kidding.

I DO want to remember how I felt when we learned we were having a baby. If this is too personal, stop reading so your eyes don't burn out.

After trying for a little while, and having people make ridiculous comments ("Oh, do you not want kids?" "How old are you? Have you tried?" "Do you think you'll have kids soon? Or are you trying? Because if you are, I have a friend who knows things about fertility." "We are SO ready for you to have kids." "You shouldn't wait too long if you want babies. I was watching Dr. Oz at the gym, and he said...""I can't wait to get away from my kids, so don't have any soon." "When the heck are you guys going to have kids? Our kids need to be frieeeeends.") I started to get concerned/disappointed/irate. Like, irate as in irrationally irate. Actually, I would like to take this moment to pat myself on the back for demonstrating super human restraint and not decking anyone in the mouth. It came close. Maybe it's just me, but I found all (ALL) statements pertaining to my reproductive life semi-personal, and the LDS culture's impudence on such a delicate subject stirred up some annnnger.

Is it just Mormons?

Anyway, I know I was/am hyper sensitive to that. Still.

That being said, the constant reminders from clients/friends didn't ease any worries I was starting to have. We didn't try for years or anything, but with my mom's history of fertility issues + comments all day long, I was getting more uneasy.

 As far as I was concerned, pregnancy tests were more or less an 8-ball. Your future is determined in just one action, and regardless of how long I stared, that little stick was always firm on it's answer.

Then, one miraculous time, I decided it was time to get my routine "NO NO NO NO WAY NO" answer from the all-knowing First Response 8-stick, this time a couple days earlier than usual. I had a fun day planned the following day with some family that just came in town, and I figured that would be a good distraction to my inevitable disappointment. As with every other time, I tried to peel my eyes away from the stick for at least a minute. 20 seconds is usually about all I lasted, after distracting myself with some bathroom baseboard wiping. To my absolute shock, there was a little, tiny, miniscule, faint trace of a second line. The "YES" LINE! I was so absorbed in staring at it, I didn't blink. I couldn't breathe, either, because I couldn't chance making that line go away. My contacts started to get fuzzy. I couldn't blink because then they'd bend. (There was a lot of contact reasoning in my head for about 10 seconds.) I was trying to wave away that little, happy hopeful feeling floating up into my chest, because I thought I was seeing things. I stared for about another full minute before grabbing my phone and Google-ing "positive pregnancy test" images. After comparing, I realized it. Was. Real. I breathed again. And I stared. And I cried. And I laughed.

I ran to get Brian, who took his time coming into the room. I told him it was an emergency, and I felt his response time was inadequate for an emergency situation. When he came in, he looked at me with the test, and all he said was, "...do you think?" We looked at the developing second line on the test and laughed and (I) cried and laughed and (we) cried. Then we laughed again. We spent the rest of the night discussing all things baby and laughing some more.

Hindsight is always 20/20, but I do feel like having taken a little longer to get this baby will make me more appreciative of him than what I may have been. Otherwise, I would probably be a real whiner about pregnancy symptoms. How could I sincerely complain about getting to experience a miracle I'd prayed for?!

This may be too much information, but we are feeling SO beyond blessed and are so grateful and ecstatic to share our joy with family and friends!

PS- If any of this leads you to believe I'm going to be an unquestionably crazy mom, I would support you in that thought. I'm a little worried.



10 comments:

C&C said...

Ashton, I am so happy for you! You will be a great mom a he is a lucky little boy to be coming to you. congrats!

Nicki said...

Congrats!! I am so excited for you :) Kids are awesome and you will be a great mom.

Camille said...

Can I just say I loved every word of this post?!? When you are in this lovely Mormon culture and for some reason just don't have a child it's amazing some of the comments you get, huh?!? I have a few more funny ones to add to your list of ridiculous comments, but maybe we can swap stories at the wedding. :) Either way, I am so, so, so, SO happy for you two. You will be the best mom! And also, I can't wait to be a pregnant bridesmaid with you. Good times to be had, for sure. :)

Sarah Beck said...

Ashton you are the best! And you are so right, some people just don't know when to keep their moths shut. We are so excited for you! Miss you guys!

Sarah Beck said...

And by moths, I mean mouths :)

Jayci said...

This is the best. All of it is the best. So much fun and craziness is coming your way! I am so excited to see you as a mom - you and Brian will be stellar parents. So happy for you!!! Lucky little boy!

Morgan said...

I love this so much and I am so happy you wrote it down! I wish that I had written down all the emotions I had. Smart girl... you'll be an amazing mommy. Truly hoping I was never one of the individuals you wanted to "deck in the mouth". ;)

Megan said...

Well said! I love the way you write, Lady! And we're so excited for you guys!!

ashley said...

I'm glad to see that you sort of kept your promises for 2013. I'm also so happy to read your thoughts about this. I love it. I really love it. And I am so excited for you and Brian and your little man! He will turn out to be such a sweet little boy and a very well behaved teenager, I'm sure. Really this is just the greatest! Oh I am just so happy for you!

joeley hope said...

so stoked for you chick! xo